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Gaming and Storytelling: Failure

Posted By on September 2, 2011

If you didn’t already know, I’m a geek.  I know I’m pretty good at hiding it and all. What you may not know is that I help to run one of the largest LARPs in the Northwest.  We have a break over the summer due to conflicts with the campground we use. To fill up some of the time over the summer our players were asked to write short articles on our game, LARPing, or gaming in general.  What follows is my submission:

Embracing Failure:

Character Story Development Through Adversity

A Preface

Role playing games in general do not have an objective victory condition; there is no “Winning” to be had. So why do we play them? Why do we spend our time, energy, and resources to make them happen? For me, the answer is that I want to see the interesting stories of the characters develop. While there is no absolute “Winning” there are plenty of opportunities for characters to be successful or to fail in the context of their stories. Oftentimes, failure actually makes for the better story. With that in mind:

What Makes for an Interesting Character Story?

Let’s start with a counter-example:

The Story of Prince Whocares:
There once was a prince, heir to the throne. As he grew up he was successful at everything he put his mind to. When his father died there was a smooth succession and he was crowned king. For the rest of his years he reigned over peaceful times. Eventually, age took him, as it will all people, and he passed on surrounded by his loving family and beloved by his people.

I’m sure this was a lovely life for our fine prince. All the same, do you know why no one ever writes stories about characters that are like that? Because they’re boring, deadly boring, that’s why. There is no challenge; there is no opportunity for failure. There is no risk of something going horribly wrong only to be righted (or not) by some magnificent scheme. There are no Pyrrhic victories where even success brings the character to ruin.

So back to our question; what does make an interesting story? To create an interesting story you need conflict, adversity, challenge, struggle, failure, and the like. Sure, we each want our characters to be successful. However, interesting stories come from characters that don’t get everything they want. Interesting characters are created by their flaws and inadequacies which lead to failure or at least the risk of failure.

Characters do not have perfect knowledge nor are they the best at everything they do. It is limitations like these that make characters more interesting and believable. Limitations introduce risk and an opportunity for failure.

Without Risk There is No Reward

No matter how much we want our characters to be successful if there is no fear of failure then success is meaningless. If there is no risk, no challenge, then any victory becomes hollow. Sure, your character might collect a giant pile of coin or items and have a character sheet filled with every power in the game. However, without an interesting story surrounding it all merely collecting stuff seems to be missing the point of a game driven by character stories. Truth be told, even games with minimal story would be pointless without a possibility of losing. We as role-players just have an opportunity to create an interesting story out of defeat unlike the person who gets trounced at chess.

Try to Succeed (Knowing You Won’t)

All of this is not to say that that you should go in with the goal of failing. Even when faced with insurmountable odds a character should likely try to be successful, find a way of avoiding the conflict, or change the conflict to their advantage. Just know that things won’t always work out the way you hope. Even if it looks like your character is in a situation where success is impossible your character still has goals. Decide how far your character is willing to go to get what they want. Will they search for a treacherous way to victory or will they embrace a noble defeat.

In a game where failure (and even success) can be lethal, knowing how far your character is willing to go and for what is an important piece of player knowledge. Again, it is these struggles, conflicts and adversity that make for a compelling story.

Death and Dying

Character survival is great as long as there is a story to go along with it. But seriously, if your character goal is to have a long life they should take up farming or retire to their country estate and stay away from dangerous places. Characters in interesting stories are in peril. In role-playing games, unlike writing a story, you don’t have ultimate control over what happens to them. Short of the character throwing up his hands and saying, “I’ve had enough,” and then getting quickly out of town to some place safe you’re pretty limited on picking the ending.

Because there are so many interesting ways for a character to die I’m not a huge fan of random, meaningless death. I’d much rather a character’s death become a plot point in someone else’s story than it simply having no meaning. That said, knowing that at any moment a character might fail to survive makes everything he accomplishes so much better.

Final Thoughts

Failure isn’t bad. In fact, it is a critical element for making an interesting character story.

Go fail at something and make it awesome!

Discussion Items

  • Relate a time where you had a great story come out of something not going according to plan.
  • Describe how a character’s limitations have positively impacted role-play.
  • Talk about how your character has grown through failure.

I might also add, “How far is your character willing to go?” But that could be too telling and I like surprises.

Interesting article on WGU

Posted By on August 29, 2011

 

There is a really interesting write-up about the online university where I am working on my degree on the Washington Monthly site.  It’s a nice bit of history about the founding of the school and goes into WGU’s role in the competitive landscape for higher education. It’s nice to see the little online school I’m attending getting some attention.

The Washington Monthly – The Magazine – The College For-profits Should Fear.

Sunday Morning

Posted By on August 28, 2011

Forms,

Remembered from my youth.

Grace,

Lost in the intervening years.

Meditatively,

I find myself at peace.

Revitalized,

Moving through the water.

Life is Busy

Posted By on April 10, 2011

Life has been pretty busy and between work and school I really haven’t had much energy for writing personal stuff. With our recent launches at work things seem to be slowing down a bit at work so I may have more energy for personal writing and might even end up doing better than quarterly updates on here.

Work:

Building and maintaining  support processes, ISO compliance documentation, and helping to manage the knowledge base of troubleshooting guides for my team to support Windows Intune, System Center Advisor, and our Managed Desktop customers. I suppose when I’m either writing or wrangling writing projects all the time I have successfully transitioned to being a technical writer/project manager rather than being a tech.  I’m really happy with this.

School:

Last term I completed 26 credits towards my degree .  This term I suspect I’m going to get around 20 although I might manage a bit more than that.  The tricky part is that the program I’m on is a lot of writing.  There are a some tests but most of the work comes in the form of writing a lot papers. Some days it is really hard to get motivated to get these papers done after spending a day at work going back and forth with people over word choices at work.

Pets:

Around Yule we picked up a  giant cage and got a couple of awesome rats named Hermes and Augustus.  I really like having small creatures about.  I haven’t really had pets since I was growing up because my allergies but these don’t seem to give me much trouble. And did I mention they’re awesome?

Gaming:

In the last few months I’ve started playing in a live-action role playing game called Shadow Accord.  I’ve been a gamer since I was young and while the games have changed it is a hobby I’ve enjoyed most of my life.  This game is a bit different than the normal sitting around a table rolling dice. This is running around in the woods for a weekend staying in a cabin and beating people with foam weaponry.  The game is a hell of a lot of fun and the players are great.  It is a really wonderful group of people.

Crafting:

I’ve always enjoyed working with my hands and making things. The game has helped encourage me to start doing leather crafting a bit.  I did some leather work growing up but really haven’t done anything with it in years.   It’s kind of nice making something physical once in a while when most everything you do is on a computer screen.

Health:

The Dr. told me I needed to drop some weight (Duh!) so I’m cooking more and going back to the gym.  So far everything is going pretty well.  I’m not getting too carried away in hopes that taking it slow will be something I will actually stick with.

Videogames:

I keep meaning to go back and play WoW now that the expansion is out. Unfortunately, the motivation is just not there I’m sure I’ll play again eventually but I just know that it will take a lot of time and I don’t have a lot of that to spare for a major commitment like WoW. I have been playing some puzzle games and have gone back to Champions once in a while now that it is Free to Play, and I have spent some more time with Borderlands.   It’s nice having games where there I can take a break and not feel like I’m letting people down and where I don’t feel like I’m wasting $15 a month in subscription fees when I’m not playing.

Reading:

Lots of reading since I picked up my nook last year.  A terrible job of tracking what I’ve read and commenting.

Yeah, that was a whole lot of shorter blog posts that I had sitting around in my head and never wrote fully and it was was all about me. I promise to try and be more entertaining next time.

See you again soon (hopefully)!

 

Norwescon Party

Posted By on March 1, 2011

The Merchants of Deva are planning to throw a party at Norwescon this year.  I’m hoping we can make it awesome!  Unfortunately, throwing a party is an expensive proposition so we’re looking for donations through Kickstarter. If we get enough money committed we get a party! If not we’re all sad.  Anything we raise beyond our costs is getting donated to EFF so it’s going to a good cause.

 

Possible strangeness with site

Posted By on August 17, 2010

I’m going to be making some changes to the hosting for this site over the next few days. So, I’m sorry if anything freaks out with RSS feeds or the like.

Book Reviews

Posted By on July 29, 2010

With the Now Reading widget going it got me to thinking that maybe I’d actually write a bit about the books I’m reading. Welcome to my 8th grade book report… Just kidding.

One of the things I most hate about book reviews is when people really get into plot points and details. I’m really anti-spoiler; I like discovering the story as it is presented by the author. If a book is by an author I know, often I won’t even read the dust jacket before diving right in to the story. Seriously, I just don’t want to know.

Also, this is not going to be any kind of formal literary criticism. I not going to be writing a thesis on the merits of the last book I just read and how it relates to whatever genera it comes from. I am in no way qualified to do that. Anything I write I’ll try and keep short and casual.

If I’m not writing plot summaries or serious literary criticism, what am I going to write?

  • My impressions of the book, in general terms what I liked or didn’t like about it.
  • A general overview of the premise of the book or books, as spoiler free a possible.
  • Any interesting tidbits I might have about the book or the author or whatever.
    If I think the book is worth the time to read.

Why book reviews?

Well, I read a lot, I have opinions about what I’m reading, and I think I feel like sharing. One of my biggest problems with writing on a regular basis is that I’m lacking in something to write about. I work, I go to school, I read, I watch movies, I play games, regular writing about myself is not that interesting. I suppose it could be all about me, but honestly I’m not sure I want to see the level of navel-gazing that would come out of that eventually. There will be plenty about me it is just that there will be other stuff as well. I’m sure over time there will be terrifying profile that someone could put together about me by looking at what I read.

New Widget Added: Now Reading

Posted By on July 27, 2010

So I read quite a bit. It has always been something I’ve enjoyed. When I was young, I used to stay up late into the night hiding under the blankets, reading by flashlight. Now I don’t have my parents telling me to get to sleep. Instead, I have to deal with the alarm clock (my greatest nemesis) in the morning.

I’d wanted some way of displaying what I was reading for a while. Not surprisingly there are several widgets that do just that. After playing with a few I went with Now Reading Reloaded. It pulls images from Amazon for the covers of the books and lets add notes on the books in your library or link to reviews. It is tempting to add my whole library. That, however, would be a lot of work that I really don’t see my self making time for.

This does bring up a couple things that in the effort of full-disclosure I feel should be addressed:

First off, I have no plans to try and make money off of this site. Seriously. As though that wasn’t obvious. However, the widget does let you hook up to Amazon’s referral program. So if you should happen to click through to the Amazon site and then purchase the exact item linked, and if the stars are in some sort of magical alignment, I might accidentally end up with some small amount of credit with them.

Secondly, I’m may not actually be reading the physical copy I will be linking to. I have a Nook and I really like it (that could be a whole other post). Most of my non-school reading is done on my e-reader. I keep hoping that some of the books I need for school will come in an e-book format; so far no luck there. For the most part BN and Amazon’s e-books are very closely priced. It all comes down to which reader and DRM flavor (they all kind of taste bad, just some less than others) you go with. As for physical copies, Amazon seems to have slightly better prices so I don’t mind linking to them.

There, with that bit of housekeeping out of the way I feel better about having the widget on the page.

The Reunion (pre-reunion thoughts)

Posted By on July 23, 2010

So now I’m back home for the weekend. It’s really good to be in KC; I miss this place and the people I still know here a lot. The reason for this trip is a bit unusual though. It is my 20 year high school reunion.

Honestly, I have weird, mixed feelings about the reunion itself. For the most part, I have neither seen nor spoken to nearly all of the people that will be there in something close to 20 years. There are a couple of exceptions and several of them have added me on facebook, but I have no recent connections to them.  Mostly, I like to think this is because I moved away from KC. However, I know I’m terrible at keeping in touch with people.

I didn’t have the dysfunctional high school experience that most people I currently know seem to have had. It wasn’t all super-happy-fun-times, but it wasn’t that bad either.  I spent  my high school years active and involved. I was in choir, theatre, student council, debate, mock legislature and UN, and even played sports a bit. Along with all of that I managed to skate, game, and party occasionally. I really was involved in so much that I knew pretty much everyone.

Despite this, I was in no way one of the cool kids. I was really quite certain that I was miserable about half of the time.
The thing is, I was part of a community; one I left a long time ago. Now I have an opportunity to see what happened to those people. I’m curious to find out what paths others took. I just couldn’t pass that up.

I also see this as an opportunity to reflect on what I have (and haven’t) done these last 20 years. I’m certain that my path has been far from optimal; at least it has been interesting.

So that’s why I’m at my reunion. Maybe I’ll get a chance to catch up with friends from days gone by. Maybe the whole thing will be a bust. Who knows? Either way I see the event as being a good thing by itself.

University Life, Part 1

Posted By on July 21, 2010

I’m having a great time going back to school. No, it is not a full-time party or anything like that. Rather, I’m learning new stuff and confirming that a knew quite a bit already. It is a nice sense of satisfaction and accomplishment. Although, keeping up with my studies while working and having some kind of life is an interesting balance of priorities.

So far my experiences with WGU have been very positive. I feel like I have made a good decision with where I’m going to school. I have to admit, I was kind or worried about how going someplace that was so non-traditional would work out. Those fears seem completely unfounded now.

The orientation class was a great introduction to all of the resources available. There is a huge collection of online libraries and training sources that I have access to. One day I might even use all of them. It is reassuring to know they are there and how to get to them.

Having a mentor from the school checking in to make sure things are going well, offering tips and guidance, and being available to answer questions has been very helpful. I’ve already talked with Ian, my mentor, more than all the advisors in my previous 4 years at university.

Studying has been nice. I read on the bus every day anyway. I read at lunch most days. I read a lot. Now I’m just reviewing my textbook for whatever I’m working on at the moment. Also, I bought a really nice lawn chair. I drag it out to the park and kick back and read. I see it as a fine way to spend a summer day.

The testing process is pretty slick. Being able to take a test at home rather than going into a testing center or a classroom somewhere is nice. How does that work? you ask. Couldn’t you just cheat? Nope. They have contracted with a service that monitors you while you are taking the test. Shortly after starting a webcam with a mic showed up in the mail. Now, when I need to take a test I do it through special software that takes over my computer screen and provides someone out on the tubes somewhere access to the camera to watch me take my test (I do feel kind of bad for those people).

Now you might wonder, can you get around this system? Maybe, but not likely. I’m pretty technically savvy and might be able to pull something off if I cared to try. However, I’d only get one chance and the risk to reward ratio doesn’t work out well in my favor. I’m not in school to game the system; I’m trying to learn. There is really no point in testing it.

Well that turned out to be more time on the Kryterion set-up than I’d planned but I think it is pretty cool. The worst thing about the whole process is that I needed to clean off my desk to get ready to take my first test.

Oh right, I passed my first test with no problems. Six credits down because law and ethics are subjects I have a decent background in already. I probably could have passed the test the first day but I wanted to do some of the readings to feel more comfortable with the subject. It isn’t as though I knew everything being taught. I knew just enough I probably could have passed with a score that I wouldn’t have been entirely happy with. I see no point in avoiding learning new things when presented with an opportunity.

Not all of the courses have a test; a fair number of the courses require a written project. Conveniently, I like to write and do quite a bit of it. Writing for work has really changed my perspective on this sort of assignment. Compared to the term papers from my first university experience they really seem to be about the same scale, maybe a bit larger. It is just that seems really short to me now. Seven page double-spaced paper just isn’t as intimidating as it might have once been. The degree does end with one major project and I’m sure that will be challenging, but I know I can get it done.

Well that’s all for now.